I need to tell the truth. I started this blog to hold myself accountable for keeping a cleaner house. It seems that my house cleaning takes a backseat to most anything going on in my life or my head. I had hoped that my procrastination habit would not morph over into missed posts. But it’s already happened.
Last week, I had this germ of an idea to tell you that my main supportive friend is a step ladder. Well, I have many friends who are supportive. I might have hurt their feelings telling you about my best friend that travels all over my house and yard helping me to find new heights. And what would I tell my husband? Sorry, honey, I know you try hard, but I have found more stability in that black and white step ladder than you’ve ever provided? (Hmm, I’ll put that thought aside and keep it for ammunition for our next fight.)
This blog is first and foremost going to have to be a useful thing for me—a tool used to keep me responsible. My first post about Zee might have been the ultimate of my comedian entertainment abilities. I’m not sure how funny a step ladder story would be. (Although, I did take a lot of pictures showing how it moves from room to room—like it has a mind of its own.) My house is messy for some reasons that are just not that funny.
My home reflects my inner feelings. If I am sad about something, I leave things lying around more. I don’t do laundry. I don’t wash dishes. I have an abundance of low energy. The task of cleaning is undermined by my depressions.
So why am I late on posting? Sadness—last weekend was Mother’s Day. I want to skip out on that day because I don’t have children. Mother’s Day is an era of envy for me just like Valentine’s Day was for me when I was divorced.
I posted on Facebook about it and my friends told me that I show love therefore I am a mother. One cousin told me that I gave motherly love to her child. They are my step ladder friends!
Love
Karen